Tummy Time!

Lucy is so strong! She's been holding her head up since day one! Here she is practicing... (around 3 weeks)

Happy Easter

Lucy's first Easter... we didn't make it to church (wanted to avoid all the crowds) but headed over to my grandparents to celebrate with the family.

Bath Time Fun

Mommy Accomplishments

It's amazing how things that make you feel proud change once you become a mom. I used to be motivated by sales and keeping clients happy... now I get excited by changing dirty diapers and the number of times Lucy eats during the day.

Here are some other things I feel accomplished about as a mom:

1. Sleeping when Lucy is sleeping - the first night we brought her home from the hospital, I was too scared to fall asleep, I kept thinking something might happen to her if I shut my eyes... now I feel much more comfortable and am able to rest well with her by my side!

2. Leaving the room - I'm finally making use of the baby monitor and actually feel ok jumping into the shower while Lucy is sleeping (granted I make the shower extremely short and check on her as soon as I get out, but hey... I'm making baby steps)

3. My fat baby - Lucy started out at 8lbs 6ozs and went down to 7lbs 11ozs when we brought her to her first doctor appt. The doctor wanted to make sure I fed her frequently to get her back up to her birth weight so these first weeks at home with Lucy have been all about eating! We went to the doctor yesterday to make sure she is bulking up and I'm happy to say she is a whooping 8lbs 11ozs - she had gained 12 ounces since our last appointment!

4. Getting 5 hours of sleep - since Lucy finally gained her weight back (and then some) the doctor said I could now let her sleep a little longer through the night. She said to set my alarm for 5 hours, but that Lucy would probably wake up around 3.5-4 hours to eat. Last night was our first night trying this out, I set my alarm for 5 hours and of course my little angel slept the whole time! We got so lucky... Lucy loves to sleep! She didn't wake up until I starting changing her diaper and messing with her to get her to eat.

5. Mommy/Baby outings - after taking Lucy to the pediatrician on my own, I felt brave enough to take her to Target the next week. My time was limited (there's no telling when my little tyrant will wake up and demand food) but we made it to the store, shopped and back home with no crying!

6. Lucy's first bath - we gave Lucy her first real bath this past week and she loved it, unfortunately she was a little fussy once we took her out so I didn't get a good picture, but will take one next time!

2 Weeks At Home - My Daily Schedule as a Mom

Tomorrow Lucy will be 2 weeks old, yet it feels like it has been months since we brought our little girl home... in a good way! Because of all of the changes, physical and emotional, I have gone through, it seems impossible that just 2 weeks ago I was carrying Lucy around in my belly, wondering when she was ever going to come out.

The first week at home was filled with a lot of pain, as I healed from labor, a lot of emotion, as I soaked in holding my daughter, and a lot of learning, as I better understood Lucy's eating/sleeping/pooping schedule. Fortunately, Ben was home most of that week to help me cope with all of the above. I think the most frustrating part was trying to take care of Lucy but not feeling like I could sit or stand without severe pain. I wanted so much to be able to do everything for our helpless little baby, but I could just barely take care of myself!

I also was just getting the hang of feeding. Lucy is an amazing sleeper, in fact, so amazing, she will sleep right through being hungry! The first night we brought Lucy home from the hospital we let her sleep for 4 hours in a row, thinking - Wow! What an amazing baby! and then the next time we tried to feed her it took me 6 hours to get her to have any interest in eating. We happened to be going to the pediatrician that day and learned that breast fed babies need to eat at least every 3 hours, no matter what, otherwise their blood sugar gets to low and their bodies care more about sleeping than eating. That's when I realized why every mother says you don't get any sleep the first couple months. Even if you have a baby that likes to sleep and doesn't fuss (like Lucy), you still have to wake up every 2.5 hours to feed the baby, even if that means waking up your peacefully sleeping little angel!

I am now used to the schedule, I set my alarm during the night time for every 3 hours, wake up, change Lucy, feed her for 30 minutes and then fall back asleep. Fortunately, Lucy has no problem with this schedule and eats like a champ while she is awake and then goes right back to sleep. Same goes for the day time, except Lucy sometimes eats every 2 hours - my day consists of changing Lucy's diaper (helps to wake her up), feeding Lucy, then waiting till she falls back asleep. She usually has between 2-4 hour waking periods during the day in which we cuddle and stare at each other and I soak her up... otherwise she is zonked in her bouncer chair or swing.

Due to this schedule I find myself trying to do as much as possible in my 1-2 hours between feedings. And sometimes feel a bit stuck knowing I can only do so much or get so far before she is going to need to eat again! Can't wait till feeding time is spread out a bit!

I feel like there are lots of other things to report on - but I just realized I've already written a lot and I'm guessing it's time to go feed Lucy again, so I'll just have to share more later!

Our first family outing

We went for a walk...

Labor Day

It all started at Target (don't all good things begin there?!?)... I was 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant and beginning to wonder if this little girl would ever come into this world. I had been to the doctor the day before and things were looking good, I was 3 cm dilated and 80% effaced, but still needed contractions to start the labor process. The doctor had stripped my membranes in order to help move things along and said she was hopeful that things might start moving before my scheduled induction on Friday, but I still had my doubts.

Like I said, I was running some errands to target and walmart and began to have an awful cramp in my side. It wasn't a contraction (i.e. no tightening of the stomach), but the pain was super intense and some what debilitating. When Ben got home from work (about an hour later) the pain had still not gone away. We called the doctor to make sure something wasn't going wrong, but he seemed to think it wasn't anything to worry about. Meanwhile as we were talking to the doctor my water broke! I didn't realize it at the time because it wasn't a huge gush of fluid, but when we got to the hospital later they confirmed that my water had broken.

As soon as my water broke the pain moved from being in my side to pain in my lower back and stomach, like a true contraction. We started timing the contractions and they were consistently 1 minute long, 5 minutes apart, and lasted for an hour... it was time to head to the hospital!

Once we got to the hospital, I got the green light to be admitted - I was 4 cm dilated, contractions had begun, and the doctor confirmed that my water had broken. I was taken to the delivery room and got the epidural about an hour later. I'm glad I asked for it when I did because the pain had gotten pretty intense by the time the anesthesiologist arrived. As soon as they gave me the epidural things changed for the better! Before I had been cramping every 5 minutes and could hardly relax, but after the epidural Ben and I casually watched Dirty Jobs and took a nap as my body continued to contract and prepare for labor - it was amazing.

My body progressed at a great rate on it's own - after 2 hours at the hospital I was at 7 cm, and after another 2 hrs I was at 10cm, and getting ready to push. During this waiting period, the resident working with us actually found that I had 2 bags of fluid, the baby's sac and another sac. The first sac had broken at home and was small (hence why there wasn't a huge gush of fluid) and the broke the 2nd sac at the hospital. After breaking the baby's sac, the doctor found meconium in the fluid (Lucy took her first poop in my uterus), so the NICU team had to be present when Lucy came out. The resident and our nurse assured us that this was nothing to be concerned about, that is happened a lot, but having NICU there was a standard procedure when there is meconium in the amniotic fluid.

We waited a little at 10cm for Lucy to drop a little more (she was at station 1+, and they want them to be at 2+), but then began to push around 4am Tuesday Morning. The pushing exhausted me right away and I remember thinking in my head that I wasn't going to be able to make it. It's amazing how much I thought I was prepared and how tough I thought I was (I mean, Little 5 training had to help build some endurance, right?!?) but when it came down to it, labor was much tougher than I had imagined. I kept asking our labor and delivery nurse and the resident where NICU was and when they were coming (I knew once they came that it would mean Lucy was close) but they would just laugh and encourage me that I was doing a good job, but I still had a ways to go!

After about an hour of pushing, the pain had become unbearable, I was screaming through my contractions and could hardly relax between them... so we called the anesthesiologist back in for another dose of epidural. Wow how things turned around after that! I'm not quit sure, but I think the epidural must have almost worn out by the time I got the 2nd dose because my pain almost completely went away and suddenly the idea of pushing for another hour didn't seem so bad. After feeling the two pain levels next to each other (pushing with an epidural and pushing without one - or at least a low dose of one) I am pretty confident in saying I don't think I'll ever go through labor without one!

I ended up pushing for about 2 hours total. Fortunately, I had an amazing, loving coach by my side and an awesome delivery team supporting me along the way. Ben in particular was an amazing support that day and helped keep me encouraged and hydrated (lots of ice chips) all throughout labor. I don't know what I would do without him. The doctor thought Lucy's head was face up and because I have a smaller birthing canal (so I was told) there was talks of possibly having to use the vaccum or do a c-section. Fortunately, Lucy turned around and due to my great pushing :), I was able to deliver her without any extra help... other than an episiotomy. Almost immediately after the episiotomy, Lucy popped out and greeted the world at 6:01am, Tuesday March 17th.

Because of the meconium, Ben wasn't able to cut Lucy's umbilical cord and I didn't get to hold her at first, she was taken straight over to the NICU team. They cleaned her up and made sure all was healthy and then brought this precious little baby over to lay on my chest - wow, what an amazing feeling.





After about 12 hours of labor and 40+ weeks of pregnancy, I can truly say it was all worth it just to have that first moment of holding our little girl in my arms.